Some Cure and some blah, blah, blah
Do you ever feel like this?
It's one of those experiences I think natural to the human race from time to time.
But I think the "trying to please", the "can't you see everything I'm doing" feeling that leads to the "it's never enough" feeling is different for each person.
We all have areas where we excel and are quick to grasp understanding and we also have areas where we are a bit less quick to grasp understanding and knowledge.
Case in point on one level of knowledge: I had a rough time understanding some aspects of grammar in school partly from my own inattentiveness, partly from what I now perceive to be the pitfalls of a larger classroom setting - there is no room or time to ask lots of questions when you don't understand the lesson for the day. I tended toward a more intuitive grasp of grammar based on how I heard the English language spoken as reflected on what I might have partially learned in English class. I see errors in almost everything I type but don't always know what, precisely and exactly, it is that I have broken in our outwardly agreed upon standardized grammar. I pick up a rule here and there from others but sometimes laziness, dryness of textbooks, and scarcity of time keep me from a fuller knowledge.
There is still something of the inside reflections of a person that can't be made understood from grammar alone.
Anyway, regarding knowledge and understanding on any subject, I wish it were easier to ask "is what I'm saying what you're saying" or "here's what I suck at, can you help me? I'll try not to have a thin skin if you don't try so hard to bludgeon me with a hammer for not being able to get it as soon as you got it." I'm not even sure if that's how I want to phrase that last sentence.
It has to do with patience and thicker skins and the ability to laugh at ourselves sometimes and a not so much "two opposing sides" thing but more a "I failed to ask what you really meant and just supposed I understood you and disagreed with you" thing.
I'll end with "Just Like Heaven" even though it's one of their most popular songs, and it doesn't really have too much to do with this post. I've always liked it.
It's one of those experiences I think natural to the human race from time to time.
But I think the "trying to please", the "can't you see everything I'm doing" feeling that leads to the "it's never enough" feeling is different for each person.
We all have areas where we excel and are quick to grasp understanding and we also have areas where we are a bit less quick to grasp understanding and knowledge.
Case in point on one level of knowledge: I had a rough time understanding some aspects of grammar in school partly from my own inattentiveness, partly from what I now perceive to be the pitfalls of a larger classroom setting - there is no room or time to ask lots of questions when you don't understand the lesson for the day. I tended toward a more intuitive grasp of grammar based on how I heard the English language spoken as reflected on what I might have partially learned in English class. I see errors in almost everything I type but don't always know what, precisely and exactly, it is that I have broken in our outwardly agreed upon standardized grammar. I pick up a rule here and there from others but sometimes laziness, dryness of textbooks, and scarcity of time keep me from a fuller knowledge.
There is still something of the inside reflections of a person that can't be made understood from grammar alone.
Anyway, regarding knowledge and understanding on any subject, I wish it were easier to ask "is what I'm saying what you're saying" or "here's what I suck at, can you help me? I'll try not to have a thin skin if you don't try so hard to bludgeon me with a hammer for not being able to get it as soon as you got it." I'm not even sure if that's how I want to phrase that last sentence.
It has to do with patience and thicker skins and the ability to laugh at ourselves sometimes and a not so much "two opposing sides" thing but more a "I failed to ask what you really meant and just supposed I understood you and disagreed with you" thing.
I'll end with "Just Like Heaven" even though it's one of their most popular songs, and it doesn't really have too much to do with this post. I've always liked it.
posted by Heather O'Neill | 27.12.08
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